I have absolutely no idea why I haven't updated in almost 2 months. What the heck am I thinking?!? I don't even know where to start!
In my last entry, I briefly discussed how I was planning to do the Insanity Max:30 program. How eerie is it that, on the day I decide to update, I'm going to complete the program tonight?? So far my review is this: it's awesome. Yes, you're challenged and yes, it hurts... But it's truly you against you. You push yourself for as long as you can, and then hopefully make it a little further each week. I'm happy to report that my progress has been amazing, & it's all thanks to my endurance and mental strength! You may still feel intimidated by programs like this, but I'm here to tell you that there is NO reason to be! There's a modifier for low-impact adjustments, & Shaun T constantly says, "I don't care what you're doing, as long as you keep moving." ANYONE can do this and EVERYONE deserves to get their power back. I know I have! Plus it has done amazing things for my endurance, & therefore has been the perfect complement to my Half Marathon Training.
(sigh) I wish I could be as excited about my running progress as I am my Max:30 progress. But, herein lies the problem: I am a freaking perfectionist to a fault. The cool thing about Max:30 has been that, before I push play, I can memorize the time that I'd like to beat & then usually push past it. With running, it depends on so much more than stubborn willpower. My current woe is that I bought a pair of running shoes after my gait was analyzed, but after 3 or 4 sessions, my left knee pain would become unbearable after barely 3 miles. Discouraged, but I figure I'll just order a new pair of my old kicks because I haven't had many issues other than they're over a year old.
My biggest problem with running is that I constantly get stuck in my head; I attempt to talk myself out of it. I'm going to dig deep for a second. Hopefully, by putting this insecurity out there, I'll be able to move forward & conquer it. Part of me feels like I cannot accomplish the Half. I know, right? How dare I mutter such nonsense. I am an amazing, hardworking, dedicated, FIERCE human being. I have completed workouts that other people would pass out from. My tuck jumps touch the ceiling. I WILL do one more burpee than you. So why the heck do I feel like I can't run a measly 13.1 miles?!
Running isn't really my soulmate workout - running is my, "Oh yeah? Prove it." workout. I need to remember that training is not just about building your endurance & meeting personal goals. It's also a learning experience; a trial-and-error. There's nothing wrong with an "oops."
And, if all else fails, I am constantly reiterating to myself: there was a time when I was dying to run just one mile. How can I be upset at who I've become, even if I'm not at my best?
I've decided to make my Half training my sole focus for the entire month of February to make up for any lost training time. I really think I'll be fine. I hit 7.75 miles last week. That's more than halfway there. I need to just trust myself; as long as I add on just one more mile per week, I'll be at 13 in plenty of time.
I also have raised the stakes a little bit. As I've already committed to the race for personal growth, I thought I would take the opportunity to turn it into a fundraiser for some family members who are currently picking up the pieces after a tragedy. It would honestly mean the world to me if you could check out their story and possibly even contribute. Any little bit helps!
I will say that my current regimen has been kickass for my weightloss results! I've been really focusing on my nutrition and following an 80% clean eating/20% indulgence lifestyle. I always knew I had muscle, but now I can SEE it. Inches are falling off, too. Aside from being a few ounces away from my lowest weight EVER, pretty much ALL of my pants are too big. This #fitgirlproblem is one that most would celebrate loudly, but for me - a self-supporting single lady on an NYC budget - it means tightening my belts as much as possible! ;) But, for spring, I'm going to treat myself to a new wardrobe. It's going to feel very bizarre to try on single-digit pants!!
I'm going to get back on my goal to update every Monday. But I need some feedback! In order to keep my mometum going, I'd like some ideas for blog posts. What would you like to see more of?
-Maybe even some video updates??
PLEASE let me know - the more ideas, the merrier!!
I guess that's about all I have right now. I'll have to let you all in on my Max:30 results in my next entry!
Set some goals for yourselves. Work diligently and persistently toward them. Be amazed at what you can do!
QUOTE OF THE DAY
"The impossible is often the untried." - Jim Goodwin.