It's a miracle that I have time to write this at the moment, so I'm going to just talk to you all from the heart. No GIFs or gimmicks today. A few days ago, I had a complimentary session with an intuitive life coach. Maybe some of you are skeptical of the idea and I'm not here to convince you either way. But I will say that the 30 minutes I spent with Lisseth Wertz (www.pathtoyourself.com) really presented me with a lot of clarity. A LOT of clarity. As you all know, my journey to self-love has been more difficult than my journey to successfully lose 50 lbs and maintain my new physical lifestyle. How many times have I blogged about this? Countless. I use affirmations, sometimes multiple times a day. I've forbidden insults from my vocabulary. I throw a mini photo shoot any time I feel beautiful. I take time to have private conversations with my mirror, especially in times of weakness. My confidence continues to be my biggest project, and the session that I had with Lisseth proved this even further. I'm not going to get into finite details, but in general, my life has been a quest to prove myself. Childhood bullies, plenty of relationships (not just romantic ones), anecdote after painful anecdote. "Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words may never hurt me..." ? Bullshit. I felt like an outsider for most of my adolescence, and my redemption has been given to me by reversing my circumstances. It has been my greatest joy to take charge of my happiness; to take responsibility for all aspects of my life and to give the world my happiest, healthiest self. And yet... When will I have done enough? Will it EVER be enough? Part of me never wants to say that it's been enough. I've almost become addicted to challenging myself and further proving what i can do. It's become part of my identity to prove that I can do absolutely anything I set my mind to. But I think what I - and all of you - should focus on is not what is left to prove, but who you're seeking validation from. In my session, we used the image of a monster. The monster is there and he's taunting me, but will he ever DO anything to me? Probably not. Do I need to prove anything to him? Definitely not. My goal is to be able to say that the only approval I need is my own. I'd be a liar if I said that were currently the case. The best part about my session, though, is that I now realize who I'm destined to help. I thought my main priority would be women who have big goals to overhaul their health, but I realize that my connection is much deeper than that. If you've ever..... been picked last in gym class. picked yourself apart in the mirror.
daydreamed of being someone else. fought for the acceptance of a loved one.
been told you were inadequate. felt inadequate. It will be my greatest joy to help YOU reveal your own power to yourself. Eat foods that nourish you, do exercises that inspire you & relieve stress, and practice positive self-talk to heal those scars and get the approval you deserve most: your own. If this entry spoke to you, please let me know. I've got you, boo. <3 QUOTE OF THE DAY “Most of the shadows of this life are caused by standing in one’s own sunshine.”– Ralph Waldo Emerson